Things are not looking so hot for me! I am struggling so much and I feel so alone. I am so mad a God... it feels like he is not here, though I know he is. Things just seem to be getting worse and worse for me. I cut today... I hadn't cut since 10-03-09 before today which is a long stretch without cutting for me. But I couldn't do it any more! I have been feeling so overwhelmed and stressed out I just couldn't do it any longer. It doesnt help that I don't have an income and I don't have but a couple friends who i don't see. I just don't enjoy life any more. I just wish I could have some fun... feel some hope, but when I pray about all the "crap" it never gets any better, things just seem to keep piling up! I am fighting for SSI right now too, that also has me stressing. I go to court for that December 1st. I'm scared. My mom is probably going with me to that, but she doesn't understand me. She doesn't know how bad it really is.