Cause you are the wind beneath my wings

Well, I'm sitting on a plane right now and this plane totally has WIFI! I find that amazing. I'm iChatting people on a plane! And the signal kicks butt. It's almost better than it is at my house. Maybe I'm just easily amused but that really amazes and excites me, and even makes me tear up a bit! Oh technology, you are too kind! I would like to take this moment to thank Al Gore for inventing the internet. What… A… Guy.


About a month ago, I sent in my application to my number one choice school for college, and...Drum roll please...Yesterday, I got my acceptance letter!! I about died of relief and happiness. I can finally breathe again, after feeling like I've been holding it in since October 15th. To be honest, I was extremely nervous. While my grades have been alright as of late, I didn't take my freshman and sophomore years as seriously as I should have, and now, it's practically impossible to salvage my GPA. My only saving grace was my ACT score, which, in retrospect, still isn't that great. I was unsure if I'd get in, but was hoping I would, because I don't know what I'd do or where I'd go if this school wasn't an option. And it's an incredible feeling because to be accepted means you're acceptable, and who doesn't want to be that?

Live the Barlowgirl

Barlowgirl is so...AWESOME!!!!! I listen to it everyday, I can't resist it!!! I would never turn the CD player off when I have BARLOWGIRL IN MY CD PLAYER!!!!! I would not leave there WEBSITE EITHER! I would watch and listen to the MUSIC VIDEOS and VIDEOS, I would listen to MUSIC! See! I would never leave this SITE!!!!!!!!

My best friend

It may not have worked out between us
But I still want you to COMFORT me in the midst of grief
I want you to HOLD me in your arms amongst my darkest night
I want you to TELL me it's OK even when we know it's not
I want to know that you still CARE & that you'll be there until the end because

I wrote this thinking anbout my ex cause I may still be in love with him but Idk=(
We broke up because he lied to me & he was a little to immature but he's caring & kind & a good listener & I can go to him bout anything
plus he's grown up some I just IDK!!!!!!!!

I need some... something

Things are not looking so hot for me! I am struggling so much and I feel so alone. I am so mad a God... it feels like he is not here, though I know he is. Things just seem to be getting worse and worse for me. I cut today... I hadn't cut since 10-03-09 before today which is a long stretch without cutting for me. But I couldn't do it any more! I have been feeling so overwhelmed and stressed out I just couldn't do it any longer. It doesnt help that I don't have an income and I don't have but a couple friends who i don't see. I just don't enjoy life any more. I just wish I could have some fun... feel some hope, but when I pray about all the "crap" it never gets any better, things just seem to keep piling up! I am fighting for SSI right now too, that also has me stressing. I go to court for that December 1st. I'm scared. My mom is probably going with me to that, but she doesn't understand me. She doesn't know how bad it really is.