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This summer i went to a camp called Winshape. I had gone two years before and this was my third. I never had been close to God, in fact i was running from him. My family was falling apart, we were living off of no money, I was hated, Not supported, Unloved, and just alone. I thought God had left me. My close friend had been raped, My drama department falling into chaos and my parents fighting and not a dime to spare. And being the oldest of five kids i also had the duties of keeping my home runnning and the kids clean and fed on my shoulders and i had just turned 15 on july 6. I have my dear friend katie who i had met become like my older sister help me lots and lots with everything, from my parents fighting day and night to waking up screaming from realistic nightmares. I needed the lord. I was too stuborn and stupid to just run to him open arms.

Lately...

Sooo I thought I would post a blog about what has been going on in my life....I have been working all summer and sitting around my house being a lazy buns. haha I have just went to Falls Creek which is a youth church camp in Davis, Oklahoma. I helped my mom cook for 40 students that we took to the camp with us and I had a great time. It was really crazy because to be honest I really didn't want to go because I didn't really talk to anybody at the church because they were younger than me now that I am 20 years old. anyways I went and the night before we left my dad called me into the living room...yea I still live with my parents! haha...but so he called me into the living room and asked me if i wanted to get some girls together and do a drama to Set Me Free by Casting Crowns well of course I was like yea. I always liked to sing and act so I was like ya well we got to Falls Creek and I had to decide who I was goin to ask to be in it and I was only going to have 2 other people plus me.

Old Cars With New Paint Jobs

The title may seem odd but its relavent. We are like old cars with new paint jobs. Have you ever seen an old car in a junkyard? If you were to take that car to a paint shop, and give it a new paint job it would look brand new right? Even though it has a new paint job on it; that job didnt take care of what's on the inside of the car. On the inside of the newly painted car is still that same old rust and dirt. So many of us put on paint everyday. Im not talking about makeup or anything like that. When was the last time you were truly and openly honest with someone about how your doing? Most of us when asked,"How are you?" say Im good, or Im fine; but really on the inside your hurting. When we're hurting we tend to try and hide it or bury it deep inside and we put on that paint and pretend that everythings going okay. Like the old car, this paint doesnt fix or get rid of the rust and dirt thats on the inside. That rust and dirt represent, our everyday situations.

Well,well..

Well,I had a good week. My brother Cody will be back from Brazil this Monday. He went on a missions trip with his church youth group. Detassling starts in 1 1/2 weeks.
Have to prepare for that this week. For now I'm headed to the 2nd biggest zoo in the world with my family. Oh yea,I got my BarlowGirl shirt yesterday!! Its so COOL!!
I'm wearing it right now. Gotta run. TTFN!!

4th of July

HAPPY 4th of JULY EVERYONE! I can't wait for 4th of July :)