David's Powerful Message To Everyone
First, thanks to everyone who shared a "Message to Mom" with us. Here's one more...
I think the last time I wrote to you or made something for you on Mother's Day, I was in the 4th grade. It was a poorly made cardboard card with crayon, glue and macaroni that said I love you Mom. Its rather cruel how hind sight is so clear, because in the present, my thoughts are always clouded and jumbled. I never have the right words to say, so I have always stayed silent and kept putting these kinds of things off. But I have found a poem that will hopefully describe how important you are to me and how just how sacred the calling of a mother is in this world today.
Your Life Will Be My Gain
Given me on loan my son, for a brief earthly span,
To bear, to love, and nourish. Baby, then boy to man.
Remembered tender moments, after I gave you birth,
In God's miracle we shared. I pondered this child's worth.
What would life store for him, this babe so pure and sweet?
Can I but help prepare him life's challenges to meet?
God trusted me, noble one, Oh what a humbling task,
To teach, to train, and temper the first day to the last.
To grow in hearts of babes, a faith for ever more,
To plant in the souls of boys, true character, the core.
Grant in me a fertile soil from which you draw your might,
Strength to face time's drying winds, and earth's temptations blight.
From God your life I borrowed, to claim you as my seed.
Will you help me pay my debt through your good life and deed?
If you can return to Him as pure as once you came,
Glory be upon your head. Glory to our Father's name.
This life for me holds no goal, I seek no worldly fame,
If only hailed as Mother. Your life will be my gain!
Its hard to believe that it's been nearly 3 years since the accident that took your life, and I still struggle to say whats in my heart. But I have never forgotten the lessons you have taught me in our short time together. You taught patience to a young boy with ADD which is no easy task. You taught me faith and selfless service by being a shoulder to cry on for so many people including myself, reassuring us that whatever trial we are going through has a purpose and lesson to be learned from it. Without a doubt, witnessing the scene of the fatal accident has been the hardest trial for me thus far. At the hospital where I learned of your fate and was left unto myself, you were with me one last time and I heard your voice as clear as day "I love you...goodbye." Your death taught me the most important lesson of all - forgiveness. At the time, I never would have thought that I would be able to look upon the man responsible and forgive him, but after weeks of anger and praying, I had a moment of clarity, and a simple thought entered my mind. The thought was that we are all sons and daughters of God and that I needed to see him through his eyes - a lesson I learned from you no doubt. When I was able to do so, forgiveness came easier than I expected, and a terrible burden was lifted from both of us. I know all of this is long over due, but I need say what I haven't been able to say since I made you that poorly crafted card so long ago. Thank you for all you have done for me. I love you and wait for a day when I will see you again.
If anyone happens to reads this, please do not make the mistake I made for years. Do not take your mothers for granted. Tell them how much they mean to you, because you never know when the last time will be.